gloom...

the last couple of days have been quite an experience. its not everyday that one gets to witness a "corporate reshuffle". and now that i have seen one all i can say is that it ain't pretty. and what's even worse in this case is that this is more of a "this is our chance" than "we need to do this". and the irony here is that most, if not all of those who got the axe, would have been pretty happy about the takeover that caused it. well, larry never was a saint :-)

though relief was amongst the foremost emotions in my breast when the "streamlining" was over, it wasn't that soothing feeling that is generally associated with relief. the whole office was a gloomy place, with people too unsure of themselves, some trying to put on a front as if this was just another day at work. if one has ever been to a funeral, one would quite understand some of it. though a watered-down version, it was nevertheless one equally uncomfortable. not sure if a smile would be out of place, what words might give offense... so most of us just adopted the easy way out, opting to just stay put and keep silent. and balls to all the buggers who say silence is golden. its goddamn more disturbing than the screech of a hundred engines.

but /me's dealing with it in my own perfected way, making inappropriate comments and kind of joking the whole thing away. may be its time i got some therapy...